WIIIIIIIIIIIIN.

i dont know why and i dont really care...jesse mccartney is O U T out.

and now it gets weird. the boy who's in as zuko is...dev patel of slumdog millionaire. hes not the greatest looking to say the least, ...maybe actually not zuko material.

but the guy can act, and he isnt a gay blonde popstar. plus his movie kicked some ass, so i will consider it WIN.

but ehem, i think maybe our director slapped the job on the first ethnic boy he saw but ah, you know. better than blondie.

well whatever. win. winwinwin. hes gone!!! halelujah!!!!!!! wahooo!!! the movie will not suck!!!!!!! yaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im having issues with my existance. ok that sounds emo, but really, my all too routine life is getting boring. i go to school, learn sometimes, have guitar on wednesdays, judo on mondays and thursdays, occasionally see friends outside school, even more occasionally do my homework (usually because i dont understand it and then end up feeling really retarded.)

plus...it seems like more and more, with EVERYONE i find one way or another to be jealous of them. BLAAAAAAAAAAA i feel so retarded right now you have no idea.

i can never finish artwork AND I PROCRASTINATE ON EVERYTHIIIING and i cant seem to stop

i need new paints and a whole bunch of shit that costs too much money


i have hardly crushed on anyone since summer *feels like such a girl* and i feel sort of loveless

EVERYTHING IS GETTING OOOOLD i have nothing interesting going on, its too god damn routine!!! i start wishing something interesting will happen, and then i realize how very wrong that could go.

i have discovered the meaning of the phrase 'stuck in a rut'.

okay, so i remember a certain episode of ZEFID a while ago that said that 2008, 8, was the number of change and new begginings. although sadly that was not the case for zutara, i realize that it is the case for me personally. 2008....it shouldn't be called a good year. so much has happened...it sould be called shitty....but i fucking loved it.

i changed. alot. because i had to...but also because i wanted to. and i like who i am now, im doing just fine. so....goodbye 2008. this time ive got alot more confidence.

2009....i dont want to say this for fear of being jinxed....but what the hell. bring it on. i hope its as interesting, if not more, than 08 was. and it should be...not just for me but for the country as well...weve got a great new leader and things should start shaping up.


also....some of my friends have been going through some stuff and made some decisions that are drastic...and could end badly...or do just fine. just want you all to know im here for you no matter what, forever.

time for my own decisions. in 09 i want to...and i will

learn to play the guitar

continue, and improve, at judo

(hate to be cliche) er....not...be...single....heh

(still hating to be cliche) lose a little FLAB

maybe build up my friendships some more, as strong as they already are

become a....NINJA!! haha no

be stronger mentally....emotionally

PARTAY...no, really.

be more outgoing....i guess u could say reckless....heh

find a style of art that i can stick with...not keep jumping around from one to the next

continue my vegetarianism

and theres probably alot more stuff i would like to do that i am forgetting at the moment....so....
goodbye 08. goodbye first love, first great friendships, first real problems, first being a teenager.
2009....throw it all at me. bring it on. this time im ready.

haha, alrighty then! so....back on my feet, and no i didnt actually kill the pig. nor do i plan to. because, polly, that would be a bad thing. haha, no. its because i cant lay a hand on him....

the sad thing is that as of the manips, he looks really hot as zuko. no srsly. (wtf is wrong w/ me?)

journal-a-day, right? and I WILL submit art...at some point...in my life...maybe...

you may ask yourself "wtf is the point of this journal?" well i honestly don't know. i am just so unbeleivably bored that i decided to write this journal. all my peeps are sick or being stoopid, so i just get to sit here and twiddle my thumbs! hooray!

i wish i was a ninja...sigh...and that i could play the guitar...oh well.

i'm getting purple hair in like a week! yaay!

can you tell i'm bored? i can tell i'm bored.

i'm going to stop annoying you now.

*screams of terror and agony*

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!PLEASE-ANYTHING BUT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


okay-okay. *hyperventalation*....must...calm...down....

I-i-i c-can't beleive this.

the potential cast list for the last airbender is up and guess who's playing zuko. my zuko. our zuko. the worst...

its....its....hesitate to even think it...jesse mccartney.



*tear*

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NOOO-O-O-OOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!


WHY?!?!??! WHY DO YOU TORTURE US SO!?!??!?!?!

GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am officially in mourning.and will now be referring to mccartney as the pig.

and my middle name is officially zutara.